The winner

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Feels angry, dissapointed and sorry to everyone. Itu yang gw rasain sekarang. Setelah posting lalu, adalah 'Letting the door close'. Kali ini adalah letting the heart hurts. Hari-hari ini mungkin agak penuh kesakitan, without knowing who's made it to me. The thing i know is just things that i says every morning.

I'm strong enough to do everything

I'm smart enough to get everything

I motivated enough to reach what i want

I'm wise enough to know what i need

I'm mature enough to make a decision

And i'm free enough to be myself.

Itu semacam vow of 16. Hahaha. One thing impressed me last day. Gw ada ambil nilai olahraga, lari jarak menengah. Yang adalah lari 3 lap, muterin komplex sekolah gw yang -believe me for this- GUEEEDDDEEEE banget. Dengan standar nilai 4 menit untuk nilai 100. Fiuuuuh. Bahkan untuk putra, 5 lap, 6 menit untuk 100.

Giliran romobongan gw lari, gw udah ngeri aje. You know my body it's not cooperate enough to such of bloody thing. Lari dan lari. Lap pertama, masih bisa melek, masih bisa napas, masih lari dengan benar. Lap kedua, gw udah mulai merem-merem. Put my self out of this time. Putting myself somewhere out, Africa maybe. Lap 3, gw bener-bener lari sambil tutup mata. Sambil melantunkan the vow of 16 gw. Gw lari dan lari, udah gak pake otak lagi. Bahkan kalau mau lebay. Kalo di shoot pake kamera, ceritanya penglihatan gw udah yang gelap-terang-gelap, terus yang terdengar cuma suara detak jantung. Lebay nyaaaa.

Yang jelas, lantunan vow of 16, membawa gw jauh dari tempat lari pagi itu. Rasanya kaya ada di puncak liberty (belom pernah sih) sambil menikmati angin sepoy dan melihat how peaceful the water. Jadi it's important to put in your mind, it's not how bother you with the condition. But it's how to motivate yourself as an gentlemen.

Dan pas udah selesai. 2 temen gw pingsan dadakan. Yang lain tepar di lantai dan mengeluh ini-itu. Haduuuuuuh ini, haduuuuuuh itu. One thing i know is just to proud of myself. I did it. about 4:36 it's not 100 marks. But the thing is how i made it and how i was success as a truly winner. Without bothering and crueling all the time. I passed it with smile. With light heart. No matter how swollen my feet feel. How fast my heart beat did. But i made it. That enough