Life..Life..Life 201

There wasnt much thing happened lately. But it is a lot of changes happened. I feel like all thing went in a slow motion mode. I cant really realize thing in real, it's like happening outside me. Faraway outside my zero zone. Actually, this nothing feeling leads me to a flat-non emotional feels. But as my bestfriend said, maybe it just a late effect of my imbalance life. A sudden event that takes my part away. Missing pieces of me.

This post would be very lame. I know these things probably dont have any connectivity in between. I just need some media, paper, anything to scribble and doodling so i could feel happier (well, i'm not sad either right now)

1. first thing first, I wanna shout in the most crowded place in Grand Indonesia and say "NOT every BOY is a BOYFRIEND, stupid girl!"
I did twitting much, and several times i twitted about this thing. As we grown up, we started to erase demarcation line between gender friendship. Not every boy we (girls) met is on purpose to be a boyfriend. They're just boyfriendS. Can you draw different between them?
I do have several boyfriends right now, i mean outside school (sometimes girl has boyfriends in school because they have to). And i'm enjoying spend time with them. I think we need more practice to have this kind perspective, many girls i know consider to have friendship with boy in just when they're good enough to be theirs. And i got enough with this lame thought.

2. I'm trying hard to enjoy solitude in my own house. I turn off anything buzzing, television, air conditioner, even my wall clock because it ticking annoying. I spent hours in my bed enjoy the music in my ear, the blood stream sound so calmly. Sometimes i push myself doing thing like makin muesli breakfast (late breakfast actually, because it serve at 12) or to take a shower. I do have burden feeling to be alone, sometimes i feel lonely. But it's okay, the 'Life Goes On' voice still win the heart battle. I know my bestfriends have their own matters, and i have my own too (well, not exactly right now). Probably this is what called The Adulthood, we do thing separately, our own life. But when we got together, things go like normal, as normal as you like.

3. One of my adventurous mate went to USA for student exchange (it is something i was always dreaming about, but there's a long boring story about my decision to not taking them). We had a little vow, that in 2012 (i should be in Uni and she should be in UI too) we're going to backpacking around Europe and have a real adventurous journey in the real world. Her gone, realize me a lot about changes. Sometimes we find a branch road, i need to go this way, and they must to go that way. So there is it, we continue our walk with or without people we walk now. Alone or together, we still have to walk forward, because that is L.I.F.E. Life goes on (see another post).

4. Actually i have tons thing to do. I need register my French Class, i need to search the Academic Writing Class for my poor little English, I need to have driving lesson and take licence, i need to make my own bank account which i planned to do this afternoon. And things around, like my essay for legal studies and my poor accounting lesson. And another thing such conference grant (Do you have any idea where can i find grant for climate or youth conference?). I need to find an affordable university in other state if in Australia is that expensivo. Well yah, see.. i have my own thing to do. My life.. so why should worried much about being abandoned? I'm not abandoned, we just have our own way, unfortunately a separate ways.

5. And last thing, i just in holiday! A week of doing nothing. I sleep at 2 or 3 AM and wake up in about 12 pm. What the hell! I write a bit and rarely cant read a single book! So here's my lame picture about my laziness. Eat-sleep-eat-sleep along the day.

hakhakhak, someone please help me out!